[It was foolish. They were sterile. He was going to go to his appointment, offer a sample and get news he now had no doubts he'd receive. While perhaps he had done what he could to sufficiently prepare for fatherhood, it hadn't given him solace. He was so tired of being fooled, especially when it played with his heart like this.
He lowered his hands and felt his heart shatter further. He pushed himself away from the shells and plants, a mess that needed cleaning (and plants that needed potting because... because he still couldn't help but care, damn it) to cross and sit next to her. His reached out and took her in, let himself break further.
Because while misery loved company, he loved her. She shouldn't beat herself up over this, or blame herself. They were a bewildered, tricked pair, but one with the wool pulled away from over their eyes.]
Only 'cause of you, Naoto. Okay? I couldn't feel confident, or... or get as far as I did or even have my head together were it not for you. I-I love you, okay?
We'll get it right in the future, won't we? No more tricks, nothin' but experience under our belts. We'll be older. Wiser, too. And we're gonna kick ass, right?
[He hiccuped a breath and held her tighter. He was sorry for making her hair wet, but he needed to sob a while.]
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Date: 2020-07-24 03:16 am (UTC)From:He lowered his hands and felt his heart shatter further. He pushed himself away from the shells and plants, a mess that needed cleaning (and plants that needed potting because... because he still couldn't help but care, damn it) to cross and sit next to her. His reached out and took her in, let himself break further.
Because while misery loved company, he loved her. She shouldn't beat herself up over this, or blame herself. They were a bewildered, tricked pair, but one with the wool pulled away from over their eyes.]
Only 'cause of you, Naoto. Okay? I couldn't feel confident, or... or get as far as I did or even have my head together were it not for you. I-I love you, okay?
We'll get it right in the future, won't we? No more tricks, nothin' but experience under our belts. We'll be older. Wiser, too. And we're gonna kick ass, right?
[He hiccuped a breath and held her tighter. He was sorry for making her hair wet, but he needed to sob a while.]